Visuals 8.

Visuals: insidious, true detective, cabin fever, star trek: deep space nine. 

Audio: swans, off!, john coltrane, hendeka, kondor. 

Reading: Recombo DNA, Star Trek: Enterprise- The Romulan War. 

Serious.

Here is a merry go round. It keeps going around and around. It's colorful lights and music add to the fun you'll have on the merry go round. 

But underneath is a grind of oiled gears. Underneath is the dust and detritus that

keeps the fun running. 

Those beautiful woods, gardens and flower patches you admire as you go for a stroll through?

They would not exist without the death, decay and rot that allows them to live.

In India, when a body is given to the river, as per ritual, the body sinks at the mouth of the river.  Said mouth of the river has one of the most succulent crabs this side of The Chesapeake. 

 I hope you are seeing the connection. 

Now, i am a serious person. I really like to  think about current, past and future choices and situations that i am involved in. I enjoy deep music and am in avoidance of 'small talk.'  This makes me an marginal person of interest to most. Those i do know, i can start up the same conversation that was left off upon at last interaction. 

This being said, those who are happy go lucky, easy going or are so completely oblivious are ones who think that someone such as my self as off putting, odd or 'rotting' their happiness or bliss.

I have found little or no company in the truly happy. 

They scare me. 

It makes me think that something underneath their veneer is so rank, so wretched that no totem of cheer could hide. 

I forget the quote or who said it, i even tried to find it.  It is: 'Only the serious people can laugh.'

I interpret this as: only people who have gone through pain, loss or suffering and have come up from those depths are allowed to laugh.'  We have earned it. 

We are the ones who have suffered the rot and stagnant pond of despair, depression, loss and any general malaise you can muster. 

If you are reading this and think that i'm depressed or upset, then stop. 

This isn't for you, because you've never had your nose in shit.