This is the final day of a really fucked up, sad year.
The sheer carnage reaped upon these lands has the earth shivering in their wake.
I had major ups and downs, and once again had to defend myself and my integrity, to save face among my peers.
I weeded out the weak 'friends' i had, and gave up on feeling like i needed to belong with any peer group or moré.
I stopped using a life zapping pill, that wasn't letting me live. It only let me exist.
I gave up on feeling bad about things i have absolutely NO control over.
People who are peaceful, kind and dutiful will ALWAYS outnumber the bad. Don't let ANYONE sway this fact. The universe is huge and limitless, our love for each other should be the same.
Our logic as a species is flwaed, and we act like savages, repeating the same benign lie of power over and over, only to achieve the same result.
It's completely foolish,petty and ignorant.
I am about halfway through my life cycle, and if it all stopped tomorrow, i'd be pretty proud of the few accomplishments that i've set upon this mortal coil.
I have a lot of good years ahead of me, and want to focus on becoming more of a so called 'peaceful warrior.'
It looks so hippyish....peacefull warrior!'
Seriously, though. I have a family to grow with and help protect. My old ways are not unlike the ones i described above: flawed.
Anxiety, stress, depression. These things can be controlled and fixed. Mine dealings with these were starting to wear me down. Numbing myself had become tiresome as well.
There is no need for me to lie downand give in yet, as i if seems i fooled myself into thinking it was time to.
Goidbye 2015 and all of your haunts.
Goodbye Lemmy, Leonard, B.B. and Wes. You were all true inspirations.
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