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since this is a fresh start for me, i took stock of a few things as this week progressed.

1.  i was on an energy drink binge that was borderline addictive.  the stuff was like the booze: i needed more and more to get the effect.  so i have limited my intake and replaced with less caffeine and more water. i have balanced out.
2. no matter how frustrated i have gotten over the past week, i put it in stride to concentrate on my actions over my feelings.  too many times i have let my feelings at that moment decide what my actions will be.  the two usually don't align.  i am reprogramming my self to use an emotion for any certain circumstance.  and i am also working on empathy.
3. i am enjoying the things more, that i used to think defined me as boring.  movies and video games are back in the fold.  but only after elsie is all set.
4. my mom told me that i needed to learn to be my own best friend.  i have learned to take everything i do as really awesome and that i am one cool person that is happy with the world.  this has helped tremendously due to the fact that i can only effect and change what i do.  if i look at my actions in the positive, they will be positive.
5. i have returned to my therapist.  well, the first of this year is tomorrow.  it should be fun as the end of last year and the loose footing at the start of this one should make for entertaining stories.

I am going to leave you with this quote from anonymous, that i carry with me: 

'The challenge is to suspend the Meta thinking long enough for the moment to take over.'