Four more days?

Hello everyone,

The due date for our little miracle is September 16th. That date is four days from today. Now, it looked good on paper, BUT , in reality, Terri and i are pretty sure that it will be a later date than that. we have all of out "i's" dotted and out "t's" crossed. We have gotten pretty good advice from our friends that have birthed, and there is a huge reference book sitting underneath this computer.

I'm glad that i've kept up with my reading because i'm sure this one will be dog eared to death.

So

we

wait.

And wait.

My stomach is in knots thinking of it as i write. So many questions with so few answers. i'm staring into the void and it's looking back at me saying 'what do you want. i have nothing for you.'

So the void is not good at giving parenting advice. I'm sure it's not good at giving any advice. It's a void.

The best part of today so far has been walking Jackson.

The worst part has been coming home to the coffee i brewed while on said walk, and having no milk because it expired on the 6th.

I don't mind black coffee, as it is a flavor deluge. I just don't like the impact on my already nervous stomach.

I have been trying to pin down this feeling that i've had since around the 5th of this month. It's a combination of fear, awe, uncertainty and nervousness.

The way i described it to a friend was the feeling i've had just before i went on stage to act or perform in a band.

The thing is, that feeling usually ebbs about a few lines into the play, or a song or two in.

This feeling starts when i wake up and doesn't end until i go to sleep. I sleep with one eye open, waiting for the moment.

I've been camping out on the couch as Terri has been tossing and turning as well as having to use the bathroom a lot more every night.

I have been trying to keep the place extra clean, and have been trying not to be a bother or a burden.

Tensions have been a bit elevated here. Not in some negative way or some damaging way but in a 'let's get this thing over with' way.

SO, LET'S GET THIS OVER WITH!

WE'RE READY TO START OUR NEW LIVES AS PARENTS!