Surrender.

I give up.

I no longer want to be an adult. 

I just want to be my self. 

With all of my flaws and misgivings, they make me who i am.

I have never fit in with those who follow too many rules.

This used to be my strength, and i've made it my weakness through delusional regret and self loathing. 

But i'm tired of it. I'm too far along to try to fit in. 

So: what do i do?

Make decisions and judgements based on my gut and my wit, as these are my biggest assets. 

My thirties were nice, but besides some aches that don't rebound as fast as i'm used to, i am ready to begin again and really shake some leaves off the tree this time.